You know, I've tried to help you. Others have tried to help you.
You IGNORE THEIR ADVICE. Balatantly I might add.
I don't like saying this, but you're beyond helping. You're the only one who can change this. Take some time to mature as a writer... a WRITER, not just an RPer... and, and I'm sorry to be bluntly honest here but someone has to say it, mature as a person too. Try your hand at efedding a year from now and try not to be who you are now. Until then...
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NO EFED FOR YOU! COME BACK, ONE YEAR!
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